Breadmaker Dinner Rolls With a Side of Courage

In August, 2012, I wrote this post. This is where we come from. Between then and now has been a lot of patience, a lot of learning, a lot of reading. A LOT of learning. To move from this place of fear to this moment in time, I had to trust TJ with eating.

It wasn’t easy. It sounds easy. It’s not.

I had to learn that my job is to provide the food. It is not my job to get TJ to eat. Trust was hard to come by when my son said he wasn’t hungry and his weight was sliding south on the growth charts. Trust was hard to come by when he was congested or sick and had no appetite. I had already figured out that trying to make him eat more, made him eat less. Trust was all I could do, and I hung on with both hands.

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Today, I dragged my neglected bread maker out of the storage cupboard to see if I could successfully create something that resembled a dinner roll. Two and a half hours later, my house smelled of freshly baked bread and dinner was on the table. Fish, chips and a dozen muffin-shaped buns. TJ wanted nothing to do with them. “I’m not ready yet,” he says.

Any food can be scary, even something as benign as bread. TJ ate half a dozen French fries, drank a glass of milk, and called it a meal. These are the meals when trusting TJ with eating is hard. I know he ate reasonably well (for him) at lunch (6 hours ago). Familiar worries creep into conscious thought. Fortunately, these worries are now answered with sensible reason.

Surely, he must be hungry? Only he knows how hungry he is.

He has to eat! You put food on the table he can eat. 

He should try one of the bread roll muffins. It is his job to decide how much to eat.

My husband, daughter, and dinner guest remarked at how delicious the buns turned out – (they were tasty!) “I’m not ready,” TJ says again.

“That’s fine,” I say, to reassure both him and myself, “I think you will like the buns, when you are ready. They feel a bit like a fresh bagel, but taste like a ‘butter butty’” (aka Wonder® hamburger bun slathered with butter), “in the shape of a muffin.”

An eyebrow raises. A brief moment of consideration, followed by, “I’m not ready.”

The conversation is very casual. Factual. I’m imparting information while respecting his decision. The rolls are available, he can have one (or not) if he wants to.

At bedtime, TJ tells me he can’t sleep because he’s hungry. He wants to know what happens if his stomach stays empty for a long time (like overnight). I tell him hunger makes it hard to think, makes it hard to make decisions. Hunger makes it easy to become frustrated and makes us fatigued. Hunger has that effect on everybody. A full tummy makes our body work properly. A hungry tummy makes us cranky.

I ask if he wants a ‘butter butty muffin’. He can say no, there are other options.

“Okay.”

That dinner roll disappeared in record time. “You were right, Mom, this is delicious!”

“Y’know,” I say, “when everyone is saying ‘it’s delicious,’ it usually is.”

TJ has a new fascination with temporal mechanics. “If I could build a time machine, I would go back in time and try all the things you said were delicious.”

Wait, what did he just say??

“You don’t have to go back in time. You can start whenever you’re ready.”

“I think I am,” he says, “I don’t want to miss eating something delicious ever again.”

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Homemade Courage Rolls

You’ll need a bread machine and a 12-cup muffin tin.

1 1/3 cup milk
1 1/4 tsp salt
2 tbsp granulated sugar
2 tbsp butter
3 1/4 cup all purpose flour
1 1/4 tsp bread machine yeast

Add all ingredients to the bread machine chamber in the order listed. Select Dough cycle.

When cycle is completed, remove dough to a lightly floured surface. Cover with a large bowl and let rest for 10-15 minutes

Divide dough into 24 balls. Grease muffin tin. Place 2 dough balls into each muffin cup. Cover, and let rise in a warm place until doubled in size (about 30 minutes). Bake in pre-heated oven at 375F for 15-20 minutes.

Serve with butter, jam, chocolate milk syrup (Miss Adventure discovery), or your own delicious creation. Oh… and trust.

Don’t forget the trust.

Coping With Social Eating Anxiety

Eating in the presence of others, whether with friends or family, can create significant stress for someone with specific and limited food preferences.  Rhiannon, an adult picky eater, was kind enough to speak with me about her coping strategies with social eating.

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What is it about eating socially that makes it more stressful than eating alone?

Well, first off, there’s the physical reason:  if I’m out of the house for hours, I’m probably going to be hungry at some point.  I’m always worried that I won’t get enough to eat when I’m out because there won’t be enough foods there that I can eat.

Biology aside, however, I’m usually a little anxious when going out because not eating (or not eating as much as everyone else) at a gathering invites a lot of social problems.  Food is a method of social bonding, and not eating the food that’s in front of you is seen as a rejection of the people around you.

It can also be difficult for people to separate “wanting to spend time together” from “eating together,” especially if the social outing is long enough to include a meal. Plus, there’s a social rule that says that it’s rude to eat in front of someone who isn’t eating, and so many people feel intimidated if I’m finished with my eating long before they’re finished with theirs.

Has eating with others always been difficult?

Social eating has always had a lot of issues for me.  When I was in school, even my friends would ask, with a disgusted look, “You like that?  That’s so boring!”  Telling people that I had food issues didn’t work; it just pointed me out as someone “different” (which, to the other kids in school, is almost always a bad thing.)

Back then, I didn’t have a good description of why things tasted different to me; no one knew the words “super taster.”  My parents and I had constant fights and struggles over food.  They just didn’t understand why I wouldn’t eat something that was “perfectly good.” I got punished for not eating, and was forced to eat the food I didn’t want for dinner, for breakfast.

That being said, my parents are wonderful, loving people who would never do anything to hurt me on purpose.  Their behaviour came from ignorance only, and if they’d known then what we know now about food and eating, I can guarantee that my experiences would have been much more positive.

What strategies to do you use to cope when you are invited out to eat?

When I’m invited out to a restaurant, it’s an easy social situation.  I love the internet; if I’m going out to eat in an unfamiliar restaurant, I can often look up the menu online and decide which thing I’d be most comfortable eating beforehand.  I try to leave myself a few choices if I can, even if it means saying to the waiter “I want this meal without the sauce” or “I’d like this meal but without the coleslaw.”  A restaurant is one of the few social times wherein it’s okay to have your meal prepared specially for you.  Everyone is (usually) ordering something different anyway, so it’s no big deal to ask for your food the way you want it.

When it comes to social eating, different rules apply to different situations.  Being a guest in someone’s home is very different than a restaurant. What challenges do you face as an invited guest?

It’s much harder for me to go to someone’s house to eat, for a whole list of reasons.  Usually, the host has prepared a dish (or many dishes) to suit what they think everyone will like.  Often, though, I’ll look at a buffet table with three finger-food appetizers, five salads, two main dishes, two side dishes and a basket of buns, only to discover that I can’t eat anything there except one finger-food appetizer, one garden salad (which may or may not be ruined by someone coming over and pouring dressing all over it before I get a chance to take some) and the buns.

Now, what do I do?  I can’t just go up to the host and tell them I can’t eat their food; it’s insulting.  At best, I’ll be asked about allergies, and since I can’t claim to be allergic to everything on the table, then my reason for not eating isn’t “good enough.”

Socially, I’ve often been seen to be “causing trouble” or “just wanting attention.” It’s a hard place to be in, because even if I don’t say anything, someone is bound to look at my plate and remark, “Aren’t you eating?” Then the host will come over, concerned, and ask me why I’m not eating, thus drawing the attention of anyone who happens to be standing near.

Not answering that question isn’t an option, either.  The more silent I stay, the more people get concerned about me being sick.  Even if I just lie and say “I’m not hungry,” I often have to provide a good explanation as to why.  And if I tell the truth (that I can’t eat most of what’s on the table), I’ve now both offended the host and convinced anyone standing nearby that I’m a very weird person or (more likely) that I’m creating drama for no good reason.

Is there a solution to this?  I wish I knew of one.  If I eat beforehand and come to the party genuinely not hungry, I still have to explain why I’m not hungry.  And don’t ever tell a host that you ate before their party, unless you want to offend them even further by insinuating that not only is the food they’ve prepared no good, but that you didn’t even have to see it to know that their food was no good, and thus you ate beforehand.

Saying “I’m a picky eater” doesn’t really work well either.  Then it becomes a challenge:  find something that is currently sitting on the table that Rhiannon will eat.  She must eat something, and it must be enough to fulfil the requirements of a full meal.  It ends with me having to explain specifically about each and every dish why I won’t eat it, and coming off to everyone standing nearby and listening as a person who’s just trying to get attention for themselves/being a drama queen by being overly picky.

In the worst-case scenario, the host will open their freezer and ask me to find something I can eat, and then if I find anything, insist on making it for me.  That makes the whole situation worse, because now people who weren’t a party to the first conversation will be asking questions like “I thought you were finished cooking?”  And the host will explain to everyone in the room that they are making something special just for me, to which everyone will silently add “because she made a scene.”  I’ve even had people say to me “Why did you make such a big deal out of it?  Just find something that’s there and eat it.  It’s rude to make people cook special food just for you.”  Which of course I know, and I didn’t ask anyone to do anything special, but no one will believe me at that point.

The good news is, the worst-case scenario rarely happens.  Usually, I come to a party expecting to eat a snack instead of a full meal, and make sure that I have food at home that I can eat afterward.

When it comes to navigating the buffet table, I’ll wait until everyone else has had a chance to eat first, then pick at whatever’s left, if anything is left, of the foods I can eat.  People have come to think of me as “not hungry” all the time, because that’s the safest excuse I can provide.  I make a point of finding something cooked that I can eat, though, even if it’s just one finger-food appetizer.  I then eat the cooked food in front of the host, so they won’t feel insulted by my not eating anything they’ve prepared.

It must get tiresome always having to defend yourself from the perceptions of others. What strategies do you use to pass for a ‘normal’ eater?

As for explanations, I stick with “I’m not hungry” and compliment the host on the one cooked food I could eat.  I tend to fill up on drinks, even going to the kitchen and getting water repeatedly, so that my stomach feels fuller for the duration of the party, before I can eat my meal at home.  My excuse is that I’m part camel, and can drink a ton of water every day.  (That excuse happens to be true, so I use it often.)

If the situation is a potluck, I always sign up for either the main course or a side dish.  That way, I know that I can at least eat the food I bring, and it’ll be more filling than the usual fare.  If I can, I also bring my own platter of fresh veggies, with dip being optional, so that I know I can have some vegetables with my meal.

If the situation is a sit-down meal, it can be harder, because people will be constantly passing me a plate of something I can’t eat, and watching me pass it on without taking anything.  “Aren’t you eating?” comes up again, only this time the entire table has heard it.  I usually head this off by picking something that I can eat, and saying “I’m waiting for the (insert name of food here.)”

Can you tell me about a time when you had a good experience with social eating?

When I was 17, I went away to a camp for people who were visually impaired.  It was the first place I’d ever been to that seemed to understand my preference for plainer foods.  As an example:  one night we had spaghetti for dinner, and the tomato sauce was not automatically mixed in with the noodles.  Instead we were given a choice as to how we wanted to eat our pasta – with sauce or without, with butter or without.  I chose butter (I’ve always liked buttered noodles, before that phrase became known), and was not made to feel at all like my food choices were strange.

It turns out that, for people who are born with a visual impairment, being a super taster isn’t all that uncommon.  In fact, there was a clear division of food preferences between those of us who were born with vision loss and those of us who acquired it later.  Even those who acquired their vision at two years old preferred more ‘normal’ foods than those of us who had never had full vision.

Is there a way the host might serve a meal that helps you feel more comfortable?

Sometimes, a sit-down meal will actually have more foods that I can eat, because the foods that are served are different.  Rather than lasagna and casserole being the only choices, a roast with potatoes is more likely to be on the menu.  And since people tend to add their own sauces (gravy, cranberry sauce, etc.) to the meat after they’ve taken it, I can take just the plain meat without drawing attention to myself.  I usually try to sit near the garden salad too, so that I can take some before anyone pours dressing on it.  I’m also lucky that there are a few “staple” sides (things that are likely to be served) that I like, so I can usually take at least one of them.  My plate may not be as full as everyone else’s, and I may still be hungry afterward, but at least I don’t get the same amount of questions about how much I’m eating, because I’m able to eat more than usual.

 

Do you have strategies to make social eating a more pleasant experience? Share your ideas in the comments.

Interview With a Picky Eater

 

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It can be difficult for a foodie to comprehend how a picky eater experiences food. To shed some much needed light on this very misunderstood subject,  Rhiannon shares her perspective on her eating experience as an adult picky eater.

Everyone is picky to some degree, and everyone has food they don’t like. What creates this sense of dread about not liking the taste of a new food?

For me, not liking the taste of something goes beyond the simple “slight sourness” that I think other people experience. The difference between a food I like and a food I don’t like isn’t just that it tastes bad, but that it tastes disgusting.  It’s like biting into a fresh vegetable only to find a mouthful of rotten fungus; I want to spit it out immediately.

Since I don’t live in anyone else’s body, my assumptions about how others taste food may not always be accurate.  Still, I’ve observed that most people who dislike a food are at least able to swallow the bite they had without instantly feeling nauseated, nor immediately wanting to wash their mouths out with water.  That’s why I think that my dislike of food goes beyond the normal sensation that others experience, and it’s one of the mental blocks I have to get past when trying a new food.

Is it only taste that you find offensive? What other sensory characteristics impact your eating experience? 

When it comes to new food, sometimes it’s not the taste that I can’t handle as much as the temperature.  I usually find, with few exceptions, that there’s only one temperature that I can eat a particular food at.  While that temperature setting can vary a little (foods I prefer hot can still be okay if they’re warm, foods I prefer frozen can still be okay if they’re cold), I can’t stand the food if it’s not in the right temperature zone.

Similarly, sometimes what’s blocking me from being able to eat a food isn’t the taste or temperature, but the texture.  When eating a particular food, it’s hard for me to separate the taste from the texture, which is why I tend to use three mental categories for food – “I like it made that way,” “I don’t love it, but will eat it,” and “I can’t eat it.”

As an example, I like apples in their raw form.  I’ll deal with it if they’re softened together in dish (like apple crisp.)  I may even be able to eat the apple crisp, though I won’t like the apples as much.  However, if you give me a caramel apple, I can’t eat it.  The combined texture of the apple and the caramel is just too much for me.

The good news about having rigid temperature and texture preferences is that I can often change these qualities to suit my needs.  I used to think I didn’t like eggs; now I’ve discovered that I just don’t like soft eggs.  When cooking an egg, I leave it in the pan much longer than most people, to harden the yolk and lighten its colour.  Then I’ll happily enjoy it.

I could give you a whole list of foods that I’ve changed the temperature and/or texture of and found that I can now eat them.  It’s nice to be able to add more variety to my diet, even if that “variety” is just three standalone foods that I couldn’t eat before.  I’m still experimenting though, because if either the temperature or texture is wrong, it can still induce nausea, and at worst, it’ll sour my stomach for a little while.  That possibility is one of the things that contribute to my anxiety about food.

Mixed foods are problematic for many picky eaters. Do you like any foods mixed together?

My version of a sandwich is the meat and bun. The bread isn’t buttered, and I have no lettuce or other toppings. With certain meats, I can sometimes include mild cheeses, but that’s a relatively new thing.

Can you explain how you experience mixed foods and why these are difficult to like?

One of the main problems I face is the new “food era” we seem to be entering. Thanks to shows like Masterchef, people now think that adding as many ingredients to a dish as possible is going to make it taste better.  While that may be true for most people, it definitely isn’t true for me.  Often, I’ve found that I like the taste of a particular food by itself, but can’t stand the taste of two or more foods together.

From what I gather, most people who eat a hamburger with lettuce, pickles, ketchup, mayonnaise or mustard, onions, special sauce, and anything else you can think of on it can taste only one thing:  a mishmash of all the different flavours put together.  Most people can’t necessarily pick out ingredients one by one, unless they’re trained chefs.  Their brain decides that “the flavour of everything combined” is more important than the other ones, and so it decides to up the intensity of that one flavour by toning down the others.

I wish my brain did that.  When it comes to taste, it seems like my brain can’t decide what’s more important, and so it decides to pile every individual flavour on top of the others with equal intensity.  Instead of a symphony of flavour, I get a classroom of fourth graders who were all given cymbals to try out at the same time.  If the tastes are intense enough, it can even feel like it’s hurting me physically (think of the sensation you get when there’s a loud noise right behind you and you cover your ears.)

Adult picky eaters often prefer food plain. Can you explain what makes, say, a plain burger more appealing than a burger with multiple toppings?

For me, the intensity goes up with each new ingredient added.  If you give me a hamburger with the meat and the bun, I can taste:

  • The taste of the meat
  • The taste of the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the bun.

Add one ingredient (say, lettuce) to that mix, and suddenly the flavours become:

  • The taste of the meat
  • The taste of the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the bun
  • The taste of the lettuce
  • The taste of the meat and the lettuce
  • The taste of the lettuce and the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the lettuce and the bun.

But dealing with the addition of ‘regular’ toppings sometimes isn’t enough.  Some restaurants serve their burgers on a sesame-seed bun (something that is not said upfront in the menu description), which, in addition to the lettuce, means that I now have:

  • The taste of the meat
  • The taste of the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the bun
  • The taste of the lettuce
  • The taste of the meat and the lettuce
  • The taste of the lettuce and the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the lettuce and the bun
  • The taste of the sesame seeds
  • The taste of the sesame seeds and the lettuce
  • The taste of the meat and the sesame seeds
  • The taste of the sesame seeds and the bun
  • The taste of the meat and the sesame seeds and the lettuce and the bun.

With just two additions (one of which is often not optional), we’ve just gone from three flavours of equal intensity in my mouth to twelve.  Even one addition is sometimes too much; that’s why I usually have my sandwiches, hamburgers and hot dogs plain.

Now, if my hamburger accidentally comes with bacon that I didn’t order on it and nothing else, I can at least take the bacon off.  But in the case of a sauce getting on a food, it’s impossible to get rid of no matter what.

When trying new foods, the overwhelming intensity of not just one flavour, but many flavours piled on top of one another is definitely a mental block for me.  I’m still not very good at dealing with this one. The best I can do is to occasionally screw up my courage and prepare to possibly feel a little sick if it doesn’t work out.  Sometimes it does work out, and I’ve found new foods that I like, but when it doesn’t work, it takes me a long time to be able to screw up my courage and try again.

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What helps you to decide whether or not to try a particular food? 

I have been experimenting with adding foods to my diet. It took me a long time though, and I had to get through a lot of mental blocks before I could do it. What helped me was to start small – start with the plainest version of a food. My taste buds are super sensitive, which means that I can taste complexity and layers throughout even simple tastes, like a raw pear.  Having many flavours put together will only increase that intensity, so I’ve learned to limit the amount of ingredients in my meals.

To this day, I have two food rules that, unfortunately, rule out 98% of the foods out there:

  1. I don’t eat anything with a sauce, dressing or topping on it; and
  2. I don’t eat things that are inextricably mixed together. (Lasagna is a food that is inextricably mixed together.)

For me, trying a new food is scary because nine times out of ten, the taste will be too intense and I won’t like it. I try to alleviate this fear by always having two versions of a meal – one with the new food and another with only foods that I know I like, so that I feel secure in the knowledge that I’ll get enough to eat even if I don’t like the new food.

How do you prepare yourself for a new food experience?

I’ve learned what foods I can tolerate by having them in their plainest forms.  For years, I had a small list of foods I could eat, and was too afraid to try anything different.  However, since I’ve now been trying to add more variety to my diet, I’ll try changing the texture of foods that I previously didn’t like and see if I like them better. To me, texture is equally as important as taste.

Unfortunately, it can also be a mental block to try foods that are prepared in new ways. The first time I taste a food, my brain tends to marry the taste with the texture, so imagining the same food tasting differently is hard. Once I find a texture I like, I will always prepare that particular food in the same way every time. Case in point: I like mashed potatoes, but not baked, fried or scalloped potatoes. Texture is everything.

What environment do you prefer when you do try a new food? 

If I’m trying something new, I usually like to do so when I’m alone, with a napkin and a “backup” food that I like waiting to the side, in case I have to spit out what I’m eating and get the taste out of my mouth.  I also make it a point to try foods – even foods that previously provoked an instantly-wanting-to-vomit reaction – more than once, but the in-between period can take years.  I only recently tried mayonnaise for the second time in my life, and I still didn’t like it.

Do you find others struggle to appreciate how intense your relationship with food actually is?

To this day, a member of my family will routinely say, “So a little sauce got on it.  What’s the big deal?  Just wipe it off.”  He doesn’t seem to understand that there is no way to “wipe off” a sauce that will get rid of its flavour.  Sauces (or dressings, dips, gravy, whatever you call them) were created to permeate the food they’re on, either as a preservative or to enhance the overall taste.  “Wiping it off” will get rid of 80% of the outer layer at best, but there will still be places where the sauce has been absorbed into the food, changing its flavour unexpectedly mid-bite, and often causing instant nausea on my part.  Which is why being told to wipe off a sauce always makes me feel a little disgusted.  (If you want to know what it feels like, think of how you’d feel if your food was dropped in a puddle of urine and you were told to “wipe it off.”  I’m guessing you wouldn’t want to eat that food anymore.)

Do you have a good relationship with food?

I sometimes wish that I could enjoy all foods the way other people seem to.  I wish that I could look at a buffet table and be able to eat 100% of the food on it, and that the prospect of eating new foods induced excitement rather than anxiety.  That being said, I do genuinely enjoy the foods I can eat, because I can taste each flavour in all its complexity.

It’s helpful as a parent to understand my son’s experience with food, and that his experience is different than mine. Do you have any advice for parents of picky eaters?

When I was growing up, many people thought that teasing me about my food choices was “all in fun,” and didn’t realize how much they were hurting me.  I felt like an outsider, who didn’t have a good reason for not liking so many foods, but somehow couldn’t force myself to eat them.  I also felt as though the foods I did like were somehow “wrong,” due to the fact that most people found them too plain to eat by themselves.

One of the big things I advise is to always respect other people’s food choices, and not judge people based on what you think they “should” be eating.  Don’t turn food into a power struggle, and don’t use it as a punishment (“go to bed without dinner”) or a reward (“if you’re good, you can have your dessert.”) Instead, keep food in its proper place – a source of pleasure, enjoyment, and relaxing social bonding. Your child will thank you for it.

Thank you, Rhiannon. 

I hope adults who read this will learn that many other adults share their intense experience with food, and to accept this experience as normal for them without judgment.

The Path to Food Acceptance

There was a time when cheese was known as That-Thing-Which-Shall-Not-Be-Named in the presence of TJ. I would mix cottage cheese (shhh) into his smoothies (he added it), but because he couldn’t read the words on the packaging, it was easy to boost the protein and fat content without bringing a lot of attention to what exactly the ingredients were.

The mere mention of the word “cheese” caused a lot of stress nobody benefited from. Cheese went by other names. “Nothing” pizza, cottage cheese was known as “smoothie pudding”… Cheese was the elephant in the kitchen that we just didn’t talk about for a really long time.

And then one day it slipped. Somewhere along the way, he learned that the ‘nothing’ on the pizza was indeed ‘cheese’.  (Oh dear gracious keeper of accepted food, please don’t take pizza away!!) I held my tongue (and my breath) while he attempted to avoid the cheese on his pizza. He peeled and picked it off, and I said nothing. He ate some with the cheese on, and I said nothing. For a few months, he pondered the ramifications of cheese on his pizza and whether this was something he would embrace or eliminate. I watched all of it, white knuckling permanent grooves into my dining room chair, and made absolutely no comment about how much of the pizza he ate or how he chose to eat it.

Once pizza made its way back into the accepted-without-question category and he had developed a level of comfort with cheese – enough to consider it food, I started to notice a little something in TJ that hadn’t been present in him around food before. There was this look about him… the same sort of look you see in someone who has just returned from the summit of Everest. The monster we dine with was battle weary and replaced with a tangible sense of accomplishment.

When the mozzarella on his pizza changed to provolone, he immediately welcomed the difference. Just recently, on a trip to the grocery store, he spotted a piece of blueberry cheesecake. “Cheese? In a cake? Can I try it?” The dessert was barely paid for when I (and the entire grocery store) heard the verdict. “This is the BEST CAKE EVER!!”

Mozzarella, provolone and now cheesecake. Last week I asked him if he wanted to try cheese on his pizza sub (bread and pasta sauce, toasted).

“Okay.”

What… wait? Where is the disgust, the oh-hell-no rejection? I just said ‘cheese’ in reference to food he will soon be eating … and he is totally fine with this. Stay calm. Keep it together, mama.

“I have lots of different kinds of cheese. Which one should we use, the orange kind or the white like the cheese on your pizza?”

“Orange.”

Bravely going where no orange cheese has gone before, I added thin slices of cheddar to his pizza sub and served it with dinner. He ate 3/4 of the 12″ sandwich before finally deciding cheese made his sandwich different. The jury is still out if different is a good thing or not.

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Here in the feeding trenches, there are various therapeutic approaches to feeding. Two of the most popular are Sequential Oral Sensory (SOS) and Food Chaining. Both of these therapies, in the hands of a competent therapist, are good approaches. Here in the Hostage household, we use elements of both, revised to remove any hints of a feeding agenda.

Sequential Oral Sensory (SOS)

Sequential Oral Sensory is a progressive desensitization strategy to move child and target food closer together. We effectively achieve the same with no-pressure meals that focus on building trust rather than dietary variety. TJ gets lots of neutral exposure to a wide variety of food. I do not ask him to interact with any of it (anymore). He can look at what he wants, he can get acquainted with various smells, and he is welcome to get as close to any of it as he chooses. When he decided (not me – him) to explore cheese, I did not applaud, cheer, or otherwise praise him for being brave. He did not get a toy, stickers, or any kind of reward for being curious. Tasting cheddar was entirely TJs idea and the reward for his effort is discovering something delicious. Food that doesn’t taste good is a simply a learning experience.

SOS is more useful to me as a way to gauge how comfortable TJ is around certain foods, and where he is most likely to branch out into new territory. He willingly exposes himself to new foods all the time. It’s when he has equal parts of feeling comfortable, courageous and curious, that he will try something of interest to him. There is no possible way I can predict the alignment of all these variables. All I can do is provide eating opportunities and trust TJ to push himself along at a pace that is right for him.

Food Chaining

Food Chaining is introducing new food that has similar sensory characteristics to what the child already accepts. From the book, I was only able to understand the most basic overview. There are courses that are very inconvenient for me to get to and after watching TJ, I realized he does a much better job guiding his own eating that I could ever encourage him to do.

The chain looks like this: mozzarella cheese pizza –> provolone cheese pizza –> pasta sauce on a bun –> cheddar cheese with pasta sauce on a bun… or something logical like that. Earlier this year, TJ decided to try mint chocolate chip ice-cream. The next day he was eating chives from my garden. I don’t know how that math works, other than both are shades of green. Perhaps the ice-cream planted the seed that green things are safe to eat? Who knows!! TJ often makes connections and chains with food that make sense to him that would never occur to me.

Lately, TJ has been imitating behaviours around how we eat different foods and mix them together. For example, while my husband, daughter and I wrap tortillas around meat, vegetables and cheese, he started wrapping a pancake around french fries. When I made crepes out of a recipe for zucchini pancakes, TJ led the charge wrapping up strawberries, blueberries and bananas. Taco night now has a combination of both crepes and tortillas. For me, it’s a combination of dessert with the main meal. For TJ, it’s an opportunity to feel normal around food and experiment with different textures.

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TJ is doing impressively well with food, but as I look to a bright nutritional future for him and for our family, I don’t dare forget the place of fear and anxiety we’ve come from. TJ didn’t get to this level of food acceptance with an agenda to eat certain foods, or with stickers, or with rewards, or with praise or punishment. We didn’t get here with by talking about nutrition, or by restricting access to ‘junk’ food, or by insisting on eating only ‘healthy’ food.

We got here together with trust and by following a division of responsibility with feeding. The path ahead is long, but at least I know we are going the right way.

 

Being A Considerate Holiday Host

T’is the season for decadent food and holiday entertaining. As host, we want our guests to feel welcome and to enjoy themselves in our homes. Entertaining frequently includes providing our guests with an assortment of delicious snacks and edible fare. While many enjoy savouring a variety of different foods around the holidays, the obligation to eat in a social setting can be extremely stressful for others.

The host cannot know every guest’s personal relationship with food. One guest may be struggling with her weight, another may be quietly suffering from an eating disorder. One may have food allergies, another might be sensitive to strong smells or certain textures. Food is deeply personal and reasons that guide food selection are equally so. The list of physical, ethical, medical and emotional reasons for why we each choose to eat what we do is long. What can a gracious host realistically do to not contribute to eating issues we may be unaware of?

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The RSVP

Ask guests to indicate if they have any food allergies or preferences. Most who live with food allergies are well aware that the likelihood of cross contamination in a kitchen that isn’t allergen free is high. Even if the host is aware of an allergy, it requires diligence to prepare guaranteed allergen-free food.

The RSVP can also ask guests to indicate food preferences. Guests with sensory challenges can be unusually anxious in social eating situations, stress that can be significantly reduced by finding enough food to eat.

In either case, the host can ask guests to bring a favourite dish that is safe to eat in enough quantity so that it can be shared with others. Not only does this help reduce work and cost for the host, it ensures that all guests will have something they can enjoy.

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The Presentation

How the food is served is often the easiest way to consider everyone’s preferences. A buffet line allows guests to pick and choose from what’s offered, but also makes it more difficult to keep serving utensils uncontaminated. It also provides an opportunity for well-meaning guests to critique the contents of another guest’s plate.

Be mindful of where serving dishes are placed to minimize contamination risk. Also, be ready to interject with a distraction if you notice one guest being politely badgered for not trying the green bean casserole. These situations can be avoided by offering your food sensitive guests a discreet opportunity to serve themselves first.

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The Conversation

Expect words of appreciation for hosting a lovely event, but remember, the food isn’t the center of attention. Turn the spotlight to your guests, and encourage them to be proud of their recent accomplishments. Remember to keep the focus on the company present and off the food. Few people are eager or willing to discuss their personal eating struggles in public.

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Best Bets?

Follow the tradition of world class dining. A basket of rolls or a loaf of bread are usually appreciated for those who are anxious around food. For pasta, potatoes and rice, offer sauces on the side, or have a plain option available beside the mixed dish.

What If?

Nobody can be all things to all people. If you do have a guest who isn’t eating, it likely has nothing to do with your cooking. You may quietly inquire if there is anything you can do, but you do not have to interrupt your entertaining to make a separate meal for one person. Those who struggle with food often have their own socially acceptable ways of coping with social eating events. Trust your guest to take care of her own eating needs. You can help by not drawing attention to her empty plate.

Happy holiday entertaining!!

Please leave your considerate hosting tips in the comments.

And please… don’t drink and drive.